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Encapsulate 2011 in one word. Explain why you’re using that word.
Trying
2011 has been by far the most trying years of my life. I worked for the first few months of the year in a job that I didn’t enjoy but took because I had no idea what I was doing with my life at that point. My aunt was also diagnosed as terminal days before xmas 2010, so she was in and out of the hospital and I liked being able to be near her.
Cancer. That’s been a big part of why 2011 has been so trying for me. First with my aunt for the first three months then with my uncle on my mother’s side from May onward. And now the news that despite the removal of a majority of his liver the cancer has re-grown with the liver and is too aggressive to defeat.
I came to Tempe with an open mind about the grad program I’d been accepted to, and now still wondering if it was a good idea. The core course has not been what I’d envisioned at all. It’s a new program and it’s their first time teaching it this way but it still feels like a mess to me. There’s the promise of wait and it’ll come together, but I’m halfway through the program and I’m thinking it shouldn’t feel like we’re still putting pieces together. So there have been things trying my good natured soul academically.
Personally? The family has been struggling with the loss of my aunt and it’s been impacting so many different parts of life I couldn’t even imagine before. And there were some days where I just felt so lost without her and it’s just been really difficult.
Romantically… Things picked up here at the end of the year. I met several nice guys but none of them have felt quite right. I’m moving to DC for the spring and I’m not sure if I’ll be coming back to Tempe so a relationship doesn’t seem like a good thing to be getting into. It’s been different to go out with a person and just be casually dating instead of jumping into a relationship. But wondering if I’m doing the right thing has been trying.
2011 has been an intense year for many reasons, but that’s not to say there weren’t good points. But it’s still been incredibly stressful for the most part.
